bitterdiva

Tomorrow, I shop

I have a saying that Tuesday that masquerades as a Monday are the worst days that can occur. Fortunately, they only occur a couple times each year, but they also begin and end the summertime. I endured only three days this week, each day being worse than the day before – if the trend were to continue, I believe someone would be murdered tomorrow. Therefore, I am taking the day off and doing some therapeutic shopping.

I read somewhere about someone’s indecision on retaining their last name or accepting their husband’s last name when they marry. It’s a different time and age from when my parents were married, 35 years ago, and feminism has come a long way. I’m almost 27, frightening to me as that thought is, and I’ve been who I am for all these years. I haven’t been published, I haven’t been in a multi-million dollar blockbuster movie, and I haven’t invented a drug that would solve the world’s problems. However, I’ve written several papers, designed several websites, and have a child (my cat) with my last name.

There’s also a sense of pride for me, it’s a unique last name, if only in America. In Ukraine and Russia it’s almost as common as Jones and Smith. I enjoy my last name, I’m proud of my last name, and want it to remain alive. Should I marry, which isn’t to say that I don’t have someone that I want to marry, my last name will remain after the congratulations are just whispers in the wind.

The issues I have with marriage is that I will be the first in my family to marry, which brings with it expectations by my mother. I am afraid that I would cave in to her wishes and mandates rather than explaining and carrying out the intricacies of the plans that my significant other and I have. I also hate attention. I don’t like being the focus of anyone’s attention, especially people that I haven’t seen or had contact with in ages.

Eh, there was something else I was going to expound on, but I should get back to cleaning up my desk before a meeting.

02:15 PM

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Posted by: texasyankee at June 3, 2004 11:15 PM

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