bitterdiva

Hybrid state of affairs

Have you ever spent a night in a hybrid state of sleep and consciousness? Everything seems so surreal. You’re half asleep and yet you’re half awake; and to deal with the silence and the darkness your brain starts compensating for the lack of stimuli. It creates its own. I can’t exactly recall what it was that my mind created. It was like a clear glass pool of water. It was cold and smooth to the touch and yet it calmed me ever so greatly.

I spent the first three hours of my attempt to slumber feeling nauseous with my mouth watering just like it does before one proceeds in the violent act of reverse peristalsis. Constantly turning from my back to the side, to my stomach, to the other side, completing the rotation in search of the most comfortable position to fall asleep in. Nothing worked, not even the security of having another individual in my bed helped. Occasionally I would come to full consciousness and hurry off to the bathroom to empty my then angry bladder. Repeat positioning.

The sun’s rising angered me. The room was getting lighter and my chances of a decent period of sleep were decreasing just as fast as the room brightened. Again with the sreaming bladder. This time upon my return to the bedroom my feline companion in demand of some attention scurried through the opened doorway and hopped onto my slumber companion’s sleeping frame. He vocalized his wishes and as I lied back down he crawled upon my chest nudging my chin with his nose.

I relaxed more as my cat’s purrs become more audible and rhythmic eventually reaching that hybrid state again. Realizing I was drifting off he cautiously walked over to my desk chair and curled up in a ball. I drifted further into sleep avoiding the brightness in my room and the fact that I would soon have to get out of bed. It wasn’t long after what seemed to me as just falling asleep that my alarm blared noisily filling the corners of the room with its constant droning.

My feline nor my companion seemed to be affected by the alarm and after I had shut it off, calculated the actual time, I fell back into my nice comfortable bed with thoughts of how I was going to make it through the day. I should have taken another hit of the Tussin, which is half of the reason why I never fell completely into sleep.

02:10 PM

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Posted by: Corey at March 28, 2002 02:36 AM

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